stupid me

my memory has been weakening for some reason. i constantly forget this and that everyday - annoying. and i did the stupidest thing last week - i lost my gc.

omg. what a retard. after dropping my gc twice during the lesson, i got annoyed and decided to place it on the table next to mine; so that i would not drop it again. yeah right. i didn't drop it ever again; i totally just left it there and it was forever missing from my life.

argh. my poor gc. the thing which i spent 150 bucks on. the essential techno-innovation which i feel lost without. now i have to waste extra time fiddling with the stupid normal inefficient calculator which lacks many quintessential applications.

and god. stupid me. wth is wrong with me these days i will never know.

oh yeah. some great news to announce - i have decided to move out of ntu hostel at the end of this sem. i already feel like moving out of it right now. i'd rather spend quality time at home feeling clean and comfortable at the expense of my travelling time. actually, the long travelling time felt shortened when i do my studying then.

haha. and i'm back from macau. it's a great trip. the shopping and seafood at zhuhai was fantabulous. god. cost of living in china is cheeeaaap.

one of the famous casinos at macau, owned by one of the daughters of Stanley Ho.

the macau tower which claims to have the highest bungee jump. i don't know if it's true. but the frking jump is frking ex -S$400!!! if only someone will sponsor me.

mr cool.

the famous da san ba.

view from the da san ba stairs on the town area

the place where Stanley Ho resides with his family currently. all the rich and powerful in macau lives here.

the venetian - beautiful replica of the venice city with stunningly live-like blue sky ceiling. great place to shop too, if all you have is money.

random surreal looking serene alley - perfect setting for romantic walks at night.

vintage road signs which strongly show the Portuguese colonial history.

the famous ah ma temple across the dork which protuguese traders first set foot upon, giving its name - macau

saw famous hongkong actors at the a-ma temple in their shooting.

the police at macau. quite cool looking.

zai

i'm zai-ing at home again. rotting and doing nothing. not that i have nothing to do. i have ton of things to do. but just reluctant to start the ball rolling. oh wells. argh.

life sucks.

school day

today is supposed to be a free and relaxing day after the completion of the stupid lab formal report.

in the end, i got tired and stressed out during the 3 hr lab session. argh. talk about having to crap about some shit you have no idea about from a bunch of data points. interesting? yeah, if you are crazy.

i tried asking the lab prof(?) regarding the lab discussion questions but the answers that i got are... the feeling is hard to describe, you will only understand me if you have asked any professors any specific question, hoping to get some exact specific answer.

life's full of crap i tell you.

so anyway, i had to stay back to finish my work, missed half of the econs lec which is unproductive as well due to poorly produced lec notes.

despite all the stress i have undergone for the lab, everyone including me copied answers from one another in the end. it's like having a cluster of photocopiers. and i seriously have no idea what i'm writing, it seems all kinds of symbols to me.

very useful. i wonder what do the dean expect us to learn from lab.

anyway, now i'm in my room. feeling very bored althoough i know i have things to do. i have work to prepare for next week. and i need to do them now before the weekend. argh. temptation to just slack off is very great.

and i'm feeling damn hungry now. i wanted to say i can even eat a cow now (you know, like the saying) but i realise i cannot eat beef, so will be, technically speaking, taboo to think of such an idea right. so anyway. it will just stay as it is.

i'm DAMN HUNgry

pissed

i'm getting pissed and at the same time i can only thank god for the few group work that i have to do for engineering yet.

maybe it's just me, my conceit, my ego. but man... i just don't know what to say about others. i hate myself for thinking this way, but i cannot help it. much failure and incompetence is also due to my inefficiency.

i'm being a bitch, i know.

at the same time i would like to thank people who have helped me in one way or another. yv for her photoshoping, my senior for his report, bobo for listening to my rant and so on.

okay i think i should get back to my business before i really kill someone.

we, the local group, must unite!

yest my friends and i went to send off the last uk member from our lunch bunch at T1. sadness began to creep in as we realise the diminishing lunch bunch.

ok lah. sadness only began to creep in now, for me. i'm always half or one beat slower than the rest in terms of emotions.

but anyway, i notice that i never really felt sad that our some of my friends are off to uk. instead the idea excites me. i only felt a tad sad when i see my friends hugging their parents for the last time before departing. that's when you witness the close parent-child bond come to live in front of your eyes despite what the friend may always talk (bad stuff and complaints) behind her parents' backs.

but anyway, deb, yv and i had dinner together just before sending hannah off. we had great talk and laughs together which i missed a great great deal for a long long time. that's the time when i can let all my shields down and just enjoy my friends' company. even though our talk isn't really HTHT, oh wells, we still had fun. i finally can be my true gross self. haha... like what i said. to keep all my grossness inside is indeed very gross.

finally only the locals are left in singapore in the lunch bunch. like what shuhui always say before she starts sobbing again at every sending off, 'we must all stick together okay'. hehe. aiyar. i'm not laughing at you, shuhui. =D

oh yeah. before i forget, i declare 'turning back twice to wave after checking in' IS a CLASSIC.

nothing better to do

random shot of some soup i had at tao restaurant served uniquely in some japanese teapot:

frankly speaking i don't know what's so ncie about the food there. i don't really find the standard of the food worthy of the price (which is quite reasonable actually thinking about it for er... 7(?) course meal). and i definitely will not go back again.

the highlight of the soup for me - a piece of pretty japanese fish cake inside it:

on the train on our way back from sending liying off:

i think the people sitting opposite us judged us a little. but oh wells. who cares. we are just getting a bit high.

my favourite shot of the month - transformer!!! (made from breadtalk which i hate):

i don't even know why so many sporeans like breadtalk in the first place. i'd rather spend a few cents more to buy more edible bread from yamazaki or some other bakery.