berating finally stopped

my mother's berating finally stopped. and guess what stopped her - a kind reminder from me that i'm still a human and can happily jump off the building when my limit is reached. haha. how sad is it. that it takes the threat of death of her offspring to finally get a mother to shut her gap.

perhaps partially because i'm not a good daughter... i'm not even close to being a useful member of the society.

then after that she consoled me. haha. and guess what. i could not be bothered. she can just stay her annoying self forever and i would not bat an eyelid. 

and why. i guess after some time you just get numb to her BS. and i therefore blog to remind myself of this moment forever. that i won't care about her. perhaps i will fulfill my duty as a daughter. but only because i have to.

may lightning strike me if god ever see the need to. i don't care.