i'm too cold hearted?

something unfortunate has happened to one of my relatives and shockingly, my reaction to the news was 'really? oh. ok.' which was very typical of me. but still, i suspect something might be wrong with me. am i too cynical about life, too self-absorbed to care about others, too nonchalant about things happening around me?

i only realised my unresponsiveness when i heard other people's response to the new piece of information. i can still rmb clearly the thoughts in my head when my mum exclaimed in dismay. 'oh wells. this has to happen sooner or later. might as well happen sooner before things get worse.' and pity for my aunt just came to me.

for me, this event may just be the turning point in his life which is very much needed for him to survive in this society. i can almost understand that this event for him may be the one that sends his life crashing and one that he can never forget. 

 i just can't help but looking at things from the more objective angle - just hoping that he will really gain something from this experience and become a stronger and more mature person than before. i don't know what to feel or say to him. we haven't been close at all and words from an near total stranger are almost imappropriate.

perhaps i'm just too cold-blooded... i don't know. and neither can i explain this change in behaviour. 

but anyway sadness aside.

photos time!

family-size pizza at pepperoni. it's fricking delicious.

guess where are these taken...