university... brrrh...

sorry for the long delay. and no, my life hasn't been hectic or whatsoever. just that i have been trying to live in my own little world where no exams, competition, and reality exist. and now it's time for the verdict - it's high time for me to work hard and put my best into my studies.

it is easy to talk about it now when i haven't touched anything intellectual for half a year, or even longer since i didn't study much for alvls. and serve me right... oh wells.

but anyway, i have made my decision and it's kind of final (i think) - i'm going to ntu environmental engineering.

and right now, i haven't found anyone else who is also going. actually, i can barely find anyone who is going to ntu. what's wrong with the world, or rather, what's wrong with the young adults in s'pore. why is everybody going to nus. grrr. life sucks. Big time.

i'm having panic attacks here and there, every now and then. about the orientation, making new friends (which is impt since i barely have any existing ones in ntu), making accommodation arrangements (like finding a room mate. argh), buying laptop, buying new hp and mp3, blah blah... it's like sec 1 all over again. oh dear. since i'm in the IP and never really had the pressure to make new friends in jc because i see my whole cohort again there. i have already forgotten the rules and basic etiquette of meeting new people and making new friends.

and right now, as i'm trying to blog coherently here. a new fear just *popped out*.

my english language is going to suffer a horrible death during the uni years. oh no. it took me six years to push my eng to the standard today (which is still kind of low actually), and the next four years will just push it slowly over the edge of the cliff before it plunged into its death finally in the end.

the abovementioned illustration is literally what i can imagine now. argh. slow and painfully frightening.

anyway, back to my original fears of the uni year as a freshman. i hate making new friends. argh. and having a low level of eq, i think i will pretty much piss everyone off on my first day. trying to make new friends also means that i can't be my bitchy self for quite a long time - not goot. i have to make friends with the seniors so that i can have a reliable and constant source of uni information and gossip, meaning i'd probably have to suck up to them - that's even worse.

next, my hostel room mate. i can't find any - that's bad enough. my friends and sis keep telling me horrible stories of disgusting room mates who make the hostel stay Hell - that's cherry on top of the icing. oh noooo...

but anyway, my sis also told me stories about how people (teekos) peeped in the girls' showerroom. haha... that kind of amused me actually. i seriously pity anyone who chose to peep on me. they will get the biggest trauma of their life. and maybe also get their one and only rustic castration surgery by an engineering undergrad in their whole life.

oh wells. life, again... i guess i will just have to take the things as they come then. and STOP WORRYING. ok. now the photos for the week:

SUMO!

our little leggish puzzle

my Mothers' Day present!

to my puff-love mum:

(actually the puffs are supposed to form a ring which gives its name - paris brest)