my 1st random

this is my first post after a year or so of stagnant blogging period and also abandonment (after i have flicked my last blog account to oblivion.) doesn't sound correct but whatever. i have to admit the moment i start typing, this strong sense of regret (wth did i get myself into) started pouring over me. why.... wh-why... as i quote chandler. i have to admit signing for a new account is a total rash act that i obviously forgot to think through. tempted to suddenly blog after reading yvette's blog.

the weird things that you suddenly want to do when you are trying to find excuse to aviod the things that you hate. in my case. STUDY. even though it's the last paper... i mean last TWO papers, i still do not feel any joy or anticipation at all. great.

sorry for the random ramble and poor language. i'm bad at expressing myself. which is the more why i should not blog. but oh welll.... i will try to perservere and continue this journey... (to where i wonder) and i'm really trying my very best to control my typing and language to prevent teensy language (like dun, din, wan etc. oh crap...) from appearing here... AND also the dots as i have just noticed. oh dear.

even though i will try to use proper language, i cannot guarantee the absence of profanities (wait, i have already used 'wth') but oh well... life... no offense but i can't imagine my life (or even the world) without vulgarities. it's too oppressive. what will happen to freedom of speech and expression? wait, is it even there in the first place?

i will stop crapping and start doing stuff i guess... hmmm... another thing. is it weird that the most interesting ting that happened these few days is my nosebleeds? (oh, how meaningful has my life become) ok i think it is weird. my mum is damn worried that i may have nasal cancer even though this happens to me all the time. even more often than menstrual cycle.

okay okay. i will really stop now.