wheeeee

WHEEEEE~ finally... the end of prelims and 7 days of break. at last i have reached the penultimate pit stop. because of this long break, i will probably blog at least once everyday i guess. surprisingly i didn't really feel happy after the last paper. perhaps due to the fact that i never really study for this prelims or rather i feel. 

i feel lost now. no idea of how i'm going to spend my week break. perhaps just eat and sleep? i suddenly feel that my life is very bleak, i have no aim, no goal, no meaningful hobby...

the irony is that i'm supposed to feel happy today, emancipated even, but right now, i feel hopeless and have little confidence in man. men and women. what's with all the different masks that people are putting on for all different occasions. for one, even though i have not really stepped into the working world yet, i know that it is necessary in the real world. for people to adapt in their different environment and protect themselves as well. but sometimes these facades may  hurt people around you, those who care and even those you want to protect. 

Next thing-feelings and relationship matters. is human attachment really that fragile? emotional ties that cannot even withstand the threat of intruders and infactuation which led people who were once deeply in love astray. if that's the case, what's the point of even starting it in the first place. what's the point of beginning something which you expect so much from and end up with only disappointment and heartache. what's the meaning of marriage? just responsibility and burden to remind people of their commitment to this relationship? an excuse of wasting money by spending it on glamourous weddings and also the divorce procedures? what's the point after all?

ok, enough whining... i shall blog again when i'm in a better mood.